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Keep Your Friends Close.

by Sam Holland

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Promise 06:02
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All the time you spent building up your walls a lock without a key, to a fence around your heart And though his hold has broken, still afraid you’re choking, but You're tying your own knots. You're still awake, cause you know that I'm not. But like a book is so much more than chapter 1 every page you turn is the different from the last one. though your hands still shake when the seasons change you’ve learned to love again you have my heart just close your eyes and count to ten And breathe me in take a step cause if you don’t risk falling you don’t risk falling in love In between heaven and the bottom of the sea is where our eyes meet Oh I don’t know what the break of dawn will bring lights on an eastern coast, or miles of empty sea but don’t abandon all hope cause today I know that home is where you’re with me and if you fall apart I’ll pick up every piece no matter where you are i promise you that’s where I’ll be So breathe me in take a step cause if you don’t risk falling you don’t risk falling in love In between heaven and the bottom of the sea is where our eyes meet ohhh There’s no where else I’d be ohhh and in time i swear you’ll see that every word, and every song, and every breath inside my lungs and all the time between side A and B means the world to me and every hour or every day when you need to leave, but you need to stay when I look at you, and you turn away saying “how is everything okay?” If all the fears inside your heart break your hope until you fall apart darlin’ I’ll be there cause I have from the start I’ll fill the holes inside your heart with every word and every song and every breath inside my lungs so every time I say your name oh please, believe me Cause I’ve spent the last five months seeing your face in the crowd two seconds from breaking down wherever I go I’ll never be home And I promise you love I’ll wait for you to come back home
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Northern Lights 04:33
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All my time spent just dreaming bout places that I wanna take you, like love’s in the creases of hotel bedsheets, but now I see, love is when you’re with me. My heart ached for something to fight for, a reason to get up and even the score, but i’ve cast out my net, with all that I am, and brought you into shore. I’ve almost gotten lost in memories of late night movies and horror scenes, flipping through pages with pictures of me, but that ain’t all I see A small house on at least forty acres, with room for a few dogs and an old porch swing, a little boy with his daddy’s hands and a little girl with her mothers eyes And I know, I know we’ll find it my heart is set, swore I’d never forget, when you opened that door. Like fireworks, our hearts collide we painted love like the northern lights And it lit a fire that’s deep in your eyes can you see it in mine? and even when every wrong’s been made right Oh I’ll still keep your hand in mine this love won’t die, we won’t die, you and I
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What's On Your Mind? 04:22
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I see silver Honda Civics everywhere I go And I only know that its not you cause I could never see through your back window Now I’m wondering if you Still tuck in your undershirts ever told me who your favorite artist were or if you understand the way I hurt But I’ll keep asking all my questions to an empty room cause when I think of you I’m a little less nauseous still a little more cautious in the things I choose to do I always wonder if it’s true you wanna leave things the way they were puzzle pieces thrown across the floor but mixed up letters still spell out words like, “Hello,” and, “I love you.” Well, I’m dying for an accidental run-in with you you got a new pair of shoes and I’m on my third cup of coffee and I’ll tell you I’m happy, even though I hate lying to you I’ll ask how you’ve been I hear your job still sucks You still feeling kinda stuck? I know I said I was giving up but I lied and I’m sorry Now I don’t know what I’ve been feeling but God needs to shuffle the cards he’s been dealing cause I’m wearing down the skin on my knuckles finding out maybe you never loved me at all See I can’t forget you even though you always said I would convincing me I withdrew but even now I know I never could you’re a pressure on my fingertips you’re every word I say on accident And I know you said you were over it but are you really ever over it? It’s 3 am and he’s not on your mind You think too much then God, everything’s not alright But when it’s 3 am and he’s not on your mind what’s on your mind?
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"She Wants Nothing To Do With You!" 06:03
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We never went to the beach or booked a room on the boardwalk Maybe you thought it was all talk But tell me there’s a promise that I didn’t keep Do you know what it felt like to see you give up without a fight When I would’ve spent my whole life fighting for you, to think I promised you. And I never wanted to go with anybody else And I know it doesn’t matter to you now, But it always mattered to me I wanna know what it feels like to hold your hand through the high tide to let waves crash and still be alright I wanna be alright but I gave everything for you Don’t tell me to keep my chin up out there Don’t tell me you’re gonna keep me in your prayers Oh honey God knows what you feel when you’re alone Don’t tell me that it’s all gonna work out or that I’ll be better off ten years from now cause honey I know what you feel when you’re alone and honey I know that you’re not alone. Where did the time go Swear a saw you bouta week ago Still finding pictures of you on my phone Every time I try to let it go But I bet you know what that feels like trying to love someone you don’t miss at night I’ve done my best to stay out of sight but I’m on your mind oh love, none of this is right but I gave everything for you oh I Don’t tell me to keep my chin up out there Don’t tell me you’re gonna keep me in your prayers Oh honey God knows what you feel when you’re alone Don’t tell me that it’s all gonna work out or that I’ll be better off ten years from now cause honey I know what you feel when you’re alone and honey I know that you’re not alone. and honey I know that you’re not alone. and honey I know that you’re not alone. You pick every lock and turn back the clock we broke down walls it was nobody’s fault nobody’s fault nobody’s fault now it’s all my fault
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Let Me Go 06:04
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Does it wake you up in the middle of the night digging thorns into your side? Does the color of the walls in your room seem to fade when you remember how your only love ran away Does it tear apart your chest when you hear my name Do your hands still shake just before it starts to rain Does it wake you up in the middle of the night when I’m not by your side oh no You don’t know The Hells I’ve seen The strange routine of memories You don’t know what it’s like to lose what means the whole world to you You don’t know Does every word I say wear holes into your mind deeper every night Is every kiss we shared still hanging off your lips Can you feel my hands ghosting your finger tips Did the light in the back of my eyes start to fade With every day I was away Did I wake you up in the middle of the night When you realized, when you realized That you don’t know the Hells I’ve seen the strange routine of memories You don’t know what it’s like to lose what means the world to you you don’t know to have the love of your life look into your eyes and tell her only lie You said, “don’t call me babe That’s not my name I don’t need you I only need you to stay away. It’s all to close and everyone knows Forget I love you’s forget forever and let me go.” Oh you don’t know the Hells I’ve seen to watch you leave so suddenly Nah we both know you didn’t have to go So afraid to be alone we both know And the things you don’t say but you mean Mean so much more to me Leave me reading in between “Call my name when my heartstrings fray God I need you you know I need you, don’t run away It’s just all so close don’t leave me alone you know I love you you know I mean it don’t let me go.”
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Empty Spaces 06:45
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I don’t dare to say your name It ain’t near worth the pain I don’t dare to see your face Cause I’ve been losing faith That life will ever be the same If it keeps on this way That it’s never too late to wait I don’t dare to say his name and block my own escape I don’t dare to see his face and let go of all restraint Cause he stole you away before I was awake and when the morning came it rained I was home when i was caught up in your sleeves when you were sleeping next to me when your voice was all i needed I was home Now I’m caught up in my dreams with empty spaces between the sheets keeping me from sleeping I was home you were gone I don’t dare to hear you speak Too afraid of what you’d say to me Any reasons you might keep I only hope you’d keep them away form me Cause now I’m scared to fall asleep Scared of what else might leave me And I know you ran away you’re running away And oh it still tears at my bones Knowing you, you’re not alone
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Pain Killers [E] 04:40
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Do you think if I keep writing you love songs I mean do you think that we could fall back in love? My friends say that’s a stretch And don’t get me wrong you know I love my friends but who fucking asked them? Okay but don’t you think since I was real from day one I only lied to you once and you know that I was drunk Doesn’t that count for something? Cause I don’t know what happened to words like forever? does forever even matter if we can’t get our shit together now? Oh I learned so quickly it’s too much to ask to hold you again and you taught me so soon that it doesn’t even matter if I planned on marrying you i planned on marrying you don’t act like you never knew I mean don’t you think it’s true that if your new boyfriend found his face in the pavement it’d be kinda hard to kiss him and maybe that’s a stretch but it’s the least I could do for all those things he’s done for you like a Tylenol for the pain he’s taking every thought of me away Oh I learned so quickly it’s too much to ask to hold you again and you taught me so soon that it doesn’t even matter if I planned on marrying you i planned on marrying you don’t act like you never knew that i planned on marrying you I planned on marrying you does he know I planned on marrying you? I planned on marrying you I planned on marrying you I planned on…

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Happiness and heartbreak: a work in progress for one year.

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released April 10, 2017

Written, recorded, and produced by Sam Holland

Special Thanks: to all of my friends and family for helping me through rough times this past year. If it weren't for you, I don't know where I'd be, but I wouldn't be here.
I love, and am grateful for, all of you.

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Sam Holland Richmond, Virginia

Singer-songwriter out of Richmond, Virginia. Writing songs since I was old enough to have anxiety attacks.

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